Okay so you know that Terri Clark song "Poor Poor Pitiful Me?" It's something like this: "Poor, poor pitiful me, all these boys won't let me be, Lord have mercy on me..."
Well that's my issue right now. I hate to complain, I really do. But I am not doing anything at all to provoke them. It's to the point where I got off work today, and had 11 missed texts- 4 were from guys I hardly know. Maybe it's my fault-I'm always up for more friends. I'm okay with meeting a guy at a wedding and maybe casually chatting, getting to know him. But 11:30 pm is past my bedtime and highly inappropriate.
And the ones that text "Hey" .... yeah, when I was younger and didn't know anything, I would be like, "What's up?" But now I have to fight every instinct to talk (believe me, it's difficult as talking runs in my family) and just ignore them. Then the next day, I get, "What's up?" and I'm like ready to pull my hair out. I just keep thinking if I ignore it, or reply with one word answers and never ask questions back, they'll get the hint and stop. It seems rude to ask them to stop talking to me...I mean, that comes off as bitchy and I'd like people to think I'm nice. (Until they get to know me, then I don't care. All my friends know I'm a bitch and believe me, I've got plenty of them anyway.)
And the one who wanted to know if he could come and stay at my apartment this weekend? Get real. I mean, I tried to be kind. I said, "I don't think that will work. Sorry." But next attempt, it's "Get real." That's for friends, not random people I hardly know.
I don't even flirt. I don't dress cute. I don't put makeup on. I am doing NOTHING to provoke this. Some of them are guys I work with. Um...hello? Do you really want to get to know me better? I show up in crappy clothes with crappy hair and I'm a complete sarcastic honest bitch all day, and then they're like, "We all going out tonight?" And that doesn't bother me, the guys at work are predominantly cool and non-creepy and I don't think they're hitting on me or trying to get in my pants 24/7.
I've also gained 9 pounds the past 8 months or so, that's 20 since I've been in college. That whole thing about guys liking skinny girls, not true. So curvy girls, embrace it. Those 20 pounds have gotten me way more attention than I ever wanted. And I can't help that I have blonde hair and good facial complexion. It's true that when I covered it up with brunette dye, I did get less attention..but not that much less.
So just throwing this out there...I'm single. I'm not looking for a boyfriend. I can hardly tolerate a date. I really, really hate it. I'm self-centered and not interested in anyone but myself. And most of all, I am not sexually active, and I have no desire to be. None at all. <<<- Spread that last part around, please!
I go out all the time. Once in a while I dress up-FOR MYSELF. I dress up because when I see what a beautiful person I am on the outside, it makes me happy. When I see people that are less than 10 on the looks scale looking at me, it pisses me off. Seriously, you should have to pay to look at me when I walk by. Trust me, I'd be a millionaire, and I'd have no idea why.
I'm writing this because I hope with all my heart that people (boys) will realize I'm not interested in them EVER (the one exception knows who he is) and that they'll think I'm not very nice and so they'll stop bothering me all the time. I know I'm cocky and self-centered, etc. etc. but for real, I have to figure out how to stop this plague. My phone can't handle it.
